Chinese New Year

New year is just around the corner and I think most of the Chinese are busy cleaning up their houses. Well, I'm quite used to it as I'm the one who clean the house often since I graduated from high school. Something I hate about doing it is whenever I finish tidy up the whole thing, my dearly family gonna' mess up everything again. It's useless about complaining and I stop to complain cause it doesn't work at all. =.=" Anyway, we clean the whole house together this time. I'm so glad about it and it's fun while we're working together. It saves lot of time still. (:

..:::Tada:::..

Alright, I'm not action action wanna show how hardworking I am. But, why can't I be a bit taller? I need a bit taller, a bit more will do. Cause like what you can see, I can't reach to the top to make sure it's clean enough. :'( Pity pity. Sobs*


Enjoy your time with your family when you all clean your house together k? Teehee.

Good luck to all.

Tata ♥

Update about my targets :D

 .::Teeth cleaning ::.

Oh well, I've been there today but I did not do for it as the dentist advised me not to. The reason is my teeth are still clean enough. Help my parents save money and I don't have to stand the pain so it's not so bad after all . :P

.::Health::.

I went jogging this morning too. Woke up at 6 and followed my parents. I found that I'm sooo weak, not enough stamina and yet so slow. =__= Sobs* Anyway, I enjoy jogging and I saw a little cute monkey. :3 It's so near to me and when I want to take out my phone to take a picture of it, it ran away from me. -.-" So no picture for that cute monkey. By the way, I think I grow a little bit bigger I guess? My shoes tortured me all the way while I was jogging and my feet ended like this.

Sobs* It pains a lot. :'(

Anyway, I'll continue to jog, won't give up just because of this. :D I left 2 more targets. Will update about it soon. ^^

Tata  ♥

How observant you are? :)

I wonder how observant can a person be? It's hard to figure out for the right answer.

Anyway, I believe that no matter how observant you are, you can't read exactly what the others are thinking about. As I'm very sure that there's still lines that are bottled up inside someone's heart and you never know about it.


How ironic. It's three something and I'm still awake? Gosh ~ Urghh. I'll try to get to bed now again.

Tata  ♥

Aim : Few changes to make myself better in looking :D

As long as you're a human being, I'm sure you hope to make yourself to be good in looking. Well, I give myself a target to achieve and hope that I can do it well.

First - hairstyle

This is the first thing that I've achieved so far. I think the whole world know that I went for a hair dye and yet there's no big difference after all. I showed Natasha how my hair through web cam and she told me that she like it very much. I wonder it's a truth or what. :P Anyway, I'm happy about it. But, she told me that I changed from a cutie girl to cutie lady. Is that a good thing ? Uhhh, no idea. =.= Haha. I do think of taking a picture of my new hairstyle but I'm not so good in camwhoring anymore so there's no picture for now.

Second - face

I went for facial treatment twice and I'll be going for it this coming week again. Hmmm, I must be more patient to wait it become better. My mother told me that it won't recover so fast :'(. And still, I must take good care of it. Now it's getting better as you can't find big pimples on my face anymore. Just only those stupid holes cause my face not so good in looking. :(

Third - health

Hmmm, I'm consider as slim???? *doubting* I find that my body doesn't has the shape that girls should have. Maybe it's because of my height or I'm fat cause my tummy ain't big but still there's "tayar" so I'm not really satisfied with it. Haha ! Anyway, that's not what I wanna talk about. >_< I want to jog and make it as a routine cause I want to stay healthy and maybe make my body more fit? Hehe. But thanks to laziness, until now I have not start it yet. =.= Someone please come and motivate me please. xD

Fourth - Wearing

I wanna buy lot of clothes !!! Maybe I'll try on something new? Depends. This coming Chinese New Year, I'm going to shop and buy as many clothes as I can. Ahahaha ! I'm going insane. Duhhh ~ Forgive me please. Cause I already didn't buy clothes for a long time.

Fifth - Teeth

I'm going for a teeth cleaning soon. Does it pain? It's my first time, kinda scare actually. Wish me the best for this. Ahahaha ! Timid Lilian scares pain a lot. >_<

Five targets and I've achieved one. Will not give up for the things I want !! Oh ya, the best way to make yourself look good is smile more. :) It makes you look more charming, trust me. So show your white teeth always. :D


That's all for now, Tata  ♥

First step - beauty

Remember that I said that I want to be more pretty? I tried something new. Guess what is it? I went for a hair dye :3 Hope it doesn't make me looks older. Anyway, I'm glad that I give it a try cause I used to worry a lot before I dye. xD


Curious about my new look? Stay tune then. :P

  What I can do is tend to be more brave and try my best for everything. I don't want to regret for things that I never try. Forget about the risk and take the fall. If it's what you want, then it worth it's all.

Every step that I take, I don't know where will it lead to. But I know each step that I take, it proves that I did not give up !

Learn to cherish

Someone shares his blog with me few days ago and it's all about his past. Something special for this blog is about his love which is very memorable yet it is heart-rending. Now he's neither keen nor eager for love anymore. You can try to imagine how love hurts. Sigh ! Anyway, he's now free from all the sadness and sorrow. (:

I wonder how great it will be as if we can predict the future. At least, we can prevent ourselves from making the wrong choices. Well, I know it's impossible. It's just a stupid thought of mine. Forget about it !

From what I learn about his experience is I must appreciate everything I have, no matter it's about love, family or friends. I don't want to wait until someday I lost anyone of them, I just realize how much that he/she meant to me. Maybe someday things may change but still I have memorable memories that can't never be forgotten.

 I'll cherish everyone and everything in my life ^^

I know how bad I want things to last forever but for the meanwhile, I still have to clear my mind to take it easy. I like to have my future mapped out, now maybe I need to learn to go with the flow. Like what someone told me, don't expect everything is the best, do remember to expect the unexpected.

I'm glad that he tend to be so honest to me cause if he promise something, it may become a broken vow. Needa' to admit that fact is always very cruel. Even when Cinderella appears in this real world, I bet she also won't find her prince like how the fairy tales used to be.

I know it's a fact yet it still affects my mood a lot. :(

Be daring and face it (:

I guess everyone faces problems when he/she's in a relationship, and so as I. Somehow I'm glad that so far everything still goes flawlessly. ♥

I would like to share about an experience that I know from a friend. I have a friend who's facing problem for now and she hasn't find a way to solve it yet. She's poor in communication but she took the first step and asked her beloved boyfriend what's the matter. I can't imagine what if I'm in that kind of situation. When an entire colony of butterflies in my stomach and still I have to be brave to face the problems. She has the courage to face it and I'm proud of her. She's awesome !

I think every problem has it's own solution. What we have to do is walk around it and we'll see the entrance to the solution. Maybe it's tough for us to seek for it but then I'm sure what we'll find it someday. My dearest friend, Valen ever told me to bear with the problems I face and take it as a good experience which life wanna share with me. Maybe that's it ! So never frown. Face it with a lion-heart.

Furthermore, in a relationship I don't think that we should be like another person as it doesn't show who we really are. Stephen Levine ever said that "Love is not what we become, but what we already are." So, I believe that as if its the person u do love, u won't act weird. Just take it easy, be yourself, and I'm sure it makes you feel more comfortable when you do so too.

I have no right to judge a person or to give advices as I'm not an expert, however I just wanna share what I know. Take care, everyone.

Night. ^^

Hearts,
Lilian.

Jealousy

I always think that I'm easy going but it seems like I'm not really one. Or, maybe I used to be one, just something horrible happens to me which is I've changed and I didn't even realize it.

When jealousy flows into your heart and apparently you can't overcome it, it feels so miserable. I never been through this kind of situation before cause usually when it happens, I never feel it that way. Till then, I have a taste of it last night.

I can't even sleep a wink last night. Maybe it sounds so exaggerated but that's the situation i was in. I know it's past and also certainly means that I have to move forward and let the part be the past. I just need some time for it and maybe for myself.

Anyway, I know I'm strong enough to get through it. (: