I'm just trying to help somehow.
I know that I can be a listener but I can't be a good adviser.
I've tried so hard to get things better but now it seems that I still fail to do so.
What if I could wish upon a time?
Can I ever make things right?
I think I'll still fail to do so.
One word to describe :
I'm a failure.

I can't stop myself for feeling so depress.
:(

For you ♥

I'm not very good in expressing my feelings and I'm very sure you know it well too. I would like to thank you for being there for me. It's really hard to believe that you're there for me whenever I need you as I though I'm always alone.

Memories are something that happened and can't never change. Somehow I know that yesterday is history, tomorrow is mystery. Today is a gift, that's why it's call as PRESENT. Please forget about the past as for now, you're the one that I appreciate. Sometimes it's amazing how you can change my whole world but I can never tell you how much you mean to me as it's more than words can say.

Your motto for life is to make me smile while my motto for life is to stay by your side and be there for you always. I can't guarantee that I can do very well but I promise that I'll make sure that I will be perfect enough for you.

Dreaming of you makes my night worth while,
thinking of you makes me smile,
having you is the best thing ever,
and..
loving you is what I plan to do forever.

Delete key

As if our brain work like how computer function, I think it will be great...
I can click on the "delete key" to delete all the memories that she gave you...

Maybe I need a job for..

It's holiday and I'm just sitting in front of my laptop doing nothing. I've to admit that it's really a boring holiday. :( Can't meet my friends everyday, no assignments to rush, no need get up so early every morning and more. What kind of life is this. It's so empty and meaningless. So, I do plan for my holidays. Wish that I have the determination to get it done. x.x

1, DSLR

I want a DSLR and I'm sure that everyone knows that DSLR is expensive. I hope to own a Canon EOS 500D with 18-200 lens which costs me RM 4000 ++. It's a big amount and I really can't effort it by myself. So, what I have to do is to find a job and try to earn as much as I could.

2, beauty

My face ain't in a good condition. I can describe it as moon surface so you can easily know how bad it is. :'( I want to be "mei mei" so maybe I'll go for facial treatment. I need to make sure I get enough sleep and drink enough water to make my skin better. Erk ~~ I want to be pretty !!

3, shopping

Hiak hiak hiak ~~ I'm sure that all girls love to shop ! I'm going KL next year so I would like to save money for this too. Again like what I've mention just now, I really have to get a job. -.- Wanna buy lot of clothes, bags, shoes and more. Am I insane? xD Don't worry, I'll give myself a limit.

4, patient

Maybe this is what I really need for the coming month. Wanna know what happen on December? Come and ask me personally. Hoho~ If you treat me good enough, maybe I'll let you know. From 8 Dec - 30 Dec, kinda long eh.. >.< I hope work will help me pass my time faster so that I won't become insane when comes to the end. Haha. Awww.. Mr. Patient, I need you. T^T

5, savings

Hmmm.. For this sem, I spend around rm 500 for my materials. I didn't success in applying my loan so what I can do is try to save more money. I'm very sure that I'm gonna spend more for my study next sem. So err.. I really do need to save more money for it.

Only 5 items but they are highly cost. Duhhh.. -.- What to do? Maybe I can gain more knowledge and experience from this. Wish me the best k? Oh ya, happy holiday to all ^^

Tomorrow will be the last day for my first Semester in LimKokWing. Oh well, time flies. Don't you agree with me? :) Honestly, I'm really glad and happy to study in LimKokWing. It's not as bad as I thought.

First, I made lot of friends. They are so fun to hang out with. Besides, I've found someone who's very important to me and a soulmate among them. If you know me very well, you'll know that it's really hard to speak out my feelings. Somehow I learn how to share my thoughts though these friends such as Desmond, Natasha, Phei Sze, Derrick, Gao Wu, Kee Yuan and especially you, Mikha'el. Friends, I'm really happy that I know all of you.

Furthermore, I find that for our course, it really trains you to be more patient and time management must be good enough. I have to admit that I'm not really good in time management but I've tried my best. I'll make sure that I'll be discipline enough *hopefully I will* >.<


For assignments, I still have a lot to improve. :( This is just a beginning for me I think? Must work harder next sem. Say NO to lazy !! Here is my final drawing for my life drawing. I'm not the best and I need to improve more. Err.. Hopefully I'll get better soon.

Holiday is just around the corner and it's a great time for me to relax. Besides, I'll still work in GAC and maybe try to practice more for my drawings. :) Say "YAY" to holiday and bye bye to all my assignments. I'm free !!!!! *soon* =x Hehe..

微笑

眼泪悄悄而去，
取代着的，
是微笑。

学会释怀，
爱哭的自己，
不哭了。

欢迎你，
亲爱的微笑，
欢迎再回到我的世界。

Thanks all.. ♥

Dearly Christina ♥,

I know that you still can't get over it but you gave me encourage to go through it. I'm feeling better for now. I wish you the best, what you need is time. K? Together we put in effort to be the best. Jiayou^^

Dearly Lon and Jiaying ♥,

Thank you for supporting me so far. Thanks for the understanding and being there for me when I need help. Though we didn't hang out always for now, you two are still my besties. You two as a couple must work out together k?

Dearly Natasha ♥,

You're like a sister for me. Thanks for your huggie when I cry, it meant so much for me. Really need to admit that actions speak louder than words. Your love and caring are always there for me. Thank you very very much !

Dearly Bii ♥,

I read your blog already. Thanks for your comfort k? We never meet before but from blogging, it's really nice to know a friend like you.

Dearly Mikhael ♥,

I have to admit that you're the best of all. It's really hard to believe that you're always there for me. Though it's really hard for me to get over it, you still be there for me always. You must be proud of me k? Cause you're the only one guy who ever see me cry like hell. Furthermore, I still cried so many times in front of you. It's embarrassing but you're the one that I trust the most. Thank you !

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I really cherish all of you and *friends that I didn't mention your names too*. I'm really glad to have everyone of you. Maybe I'm still the one who lack of confident, timid, blur, naive and more but I do know how to appreciate what I have. Thanks for being there for me always. I'm fine and I'm happy with my life for now. I'm not good in telling people how much they meant to me but in my heart, all of you always will be remembered. ♥

过意不去

对自己过意不去，是因为自己把你给弄到这地步。
心中放不下，对不起自己。
我责怪的，也依然是自己。
错的人是我，胡闹的人是我。

离开我，你才知道世界还有多美好。

很清楚自己心中的感受。
对于你所做的一切，我也无话可说。
你是否会察觉说你隐隐约约显露出了你的孩子气。
我没责怪的意思，也没想要报复的意思。
夜深依然翻来覆去睡不着，
为着是自己对自己过不去。
也许你想引起我的注意力，
想告诉你，你赢了！
我彻底的输了。
那能不能就此把我给放了？
让我拿回我失去已久的自由?


我真的累了，
感觉被逼到悬崖边，
时不时将跌入谷里。

Awww my back -.-

Argghhh.. Maybe I needa admit that sometimes I'm really stupid. -.- While we're doing our assignment, Desmond showed us a video. Then guess what? It's a frightening video and I sprained my back cause of it. Kinda speechless actually. I'm so dumb. Uhh... Pain Pain ~ SOBS ='[

These few days..

Kinda busy and I have nothing to blog about. Recently, many things happened and I've learned lessons through these matters. I just figured out how naive I used to be. :( I trusted someone whole-heartedly but I never managed to gain back what I've dedicated. Regret about it but what to do? Hmmm.. I can only forget about it. So, do remember that the best person to count on is always you yourself !

For all my friends, please remember to seek for someone who really knows how to appreciate you. Now then I just realize how important it is. When someone really understands you, he'll know all your needs and he'll be there for you always. Err.. Example : If someone don't know much about DSLR, then why should that person own a DSLR?? Unless that person really mean it and really wanna learn about it. As if he just use the DSLR like a ordinary camera, then what kind of photos can that person take? Take few mins to think about it. ^^

And ah.. Recently, I'm busy about my assignments but I really enjoy myself with my gang. Love you all. <3 Hehe. Thanks for all the supports and advices. xD When our semester ends, I'll miss you all much muchie, I'm sure. =[ SOBS

One more thing !! I'm still the girl that's angelic k? Maybe I'm not so cheerful anymore but I still believe that I'm still who I am. Honestly, I'm down when I know all of you said that I've changed alot. ='( Maybe I'm cruel to him but it's for his own good naaa.

I'm not very pro in english so if you don't get what my post mean, you may leave a comment. Hiak hiak ~ xD It's late. Needa sleep now. Hearts ~ ^^

Please.. Let me go..

If you love a person but he/she doesn't love you, try to let go. Maybe you'll feel that it's so impossible to do so. Oh well, is that true? Try to step back and take a wider look of this world. It's not as worse as you think about.

What do you expect? When someone needs you but you're not there for her. How do you feel? All the way, she's the one who devotes her love and patience to you. Somehow you never realize about it.

Can you please let go? She don't want any apology from you, what she needs is freedom. What she wants to do is to find someone who really knows how to appreciate her. You're not the one so please, let go. Let her get the chance to seek for her happiness. You can only give her sadness, sorrow and pressure.

She has wings and she wants to fly. She wants to spread her wings and learn how to fly. It's all over and the feeling fades away since you're no more there for her.