I wonder is it alright for me to say all the stuffs out? I can't take it anymore. :( Seriously, I don't know how to settle things right. Have no idea what should I do to calm myself at all. I need HELP!

There's someone I know passed away few days ago. A girl, who fought with her sickness with positive thinking all the way long. Though I'm not her friend, I can still feel how strong she is.

It's really a shocking news that a young girl ended up her life because of a kind of sickness. Life is really fragile. Can never know what is coming up next, life can just end up the next second. Who knows? I have a deep self-examination when I know about this news.

Am not alone living in this world, there's people around us, parents, siblings, friends and maybe strangers, they're a part of us that we live with. I always tell myself, cherish everyone that I have now but sometime it really doesn't work. How do I forgive someone when he/she yell at me? How do I forget when people betrayed me? How do I can't remember, the way somebody lied to me? There's so many reasons in life that I find I can hardly forgive and forget. Speaking that I have to appreciate but how much does it work out?

Do remember, once something bad happened, it may leave scars behind. So, always be careful with what you say and what you do. Words can either heal or hurt, same goes with action. Forgive and forget, it's a simple phrase with a deep meaning inside. No doubt, I'm learning it. To everyone who reads my blog, I guess this is a lesson for everyone to learn too? Cause those who love you and the ones that you care, can't always be by your side. Forgive them and cherish them always.

Loves,
Lilian

Trust

Guess there's no one in Earth that we can't trust whole-heartedly. Though there's friends out there, psycologists or whoever that's willing to lend us their ears but there's no one who can really keep them as secrets. Sigh~

New record? About one month didn't blog. Well, finally it's over, finish a sem and having a month time for me to stay at home being a pig.

Unfortunately, it's not over yet. I decided to change to Foundation before but LimKokWing doesn't allow for some reasons. So, as a result, I'm going to continue my Diploma course. Actually it's not something bad but I have to face things like separation with some of my friends? By then, when I was ready for foundation, it turns me down when they said that I can't change. What to do? Sigh~


Am trying to take things really easy but it's really hard to do so. Recently, facing mentally problems. It's really hard to find someone to talk to. I have problem in telling things. :'( Hard to express and always in a dilemma wondering should I say out.

I know, shouldn't force myself or being over demanding. I'm not supergirl.

It's been awhile that I didn't make breakfast for my family and having one with them. Flashback, I used to have my breakfast with them every morning as I followed them to shop when I just graduated from high school. As time goes, I find I don't really spend much time with my parents anymore. I only can meet them at night for now :( Anyway, my sister and I get to make one for them this morning, really having great time with them.

Sometime, I guess I'm lucky enough to have parents like them, they're always lovely and funny. Though I really envy my parents that they really have a very good relationship. Being together for so many years, they're still very sweet. They really are very good examples for me to learn.

 

They keep on saying, study hard and get a good job. I wonder would I disappoint them someday? Lately, I'm not really satisfy with my result. Aiming to maintain my result this semester but seems it's impossible. Lecturer told us the assignments we score last week, I'm really disappointed with it. Ain't motivated to do better and I feel like giving up. I'm not as talented as the others and I'm not as hardworking as the others. I give my best but I didn't give my very best. Sigh! Kinda' regret.

Papa, mama, I don't wanna' disappoint you but I really don't feel like moving on. :'(

Ouch~

Wanna' remember today cause it's the first time I know how stomach cramp feels like. :( It's very painful. Sigh~

Luckily my dear was there for me though he doesn't really know what to do by that time I guess? Till his mum came back, she told him that maybe it's because of my stomach cramped. She gave a leaf for me and put it on my stomach. @@" Weird~ But a new experience. xD By then, his brother gave me medicine to eat and I feel better after that.

I would like cry like him if I can. D:

Luckily, I feel better now. Thanks to dear and all his family ♥

After being torture for months, finally I manage  to get a rest for one week. I never know assignments can kill people in this way, it's something like you needa' "date" with the assignments everyday. I bring my assignments no matter where I go, even when I'm having my dinner in a restaurant or while waiting for the traffics when I'm driving.=x I'm not as strong as the others, my friends they can don't sleep just to finish their work but I have to and I need it seriously. D: Feel so impress for my friends who don't have to sleep~

Sleeping beauty used to sleep at 10 every night but since the evil assignment monsters find her almost everyday, she starts to sleep late. :( From 10, she sleeps at 12 and sometime 1 or 2. If not, she'll be in bed at 1 and wake up at 4 to continue her work. Sigh ~

I know it's not the end. There's still tons of assignments waiting for me and I still feel like slacking as it's holiday. Other than that, I'm trying to get enough sleep. Can I be a pig for a week? Please~~ :(

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Pig pig Lilian ♥