Pets

I mentioned about a tortoise on my last post. At last, my brother really let it go, thought he's going to keep it. At first, I feel like keeping it cause I find it's kinda' cute with its action. Anyway, I guess it's good to let it back to the wild cause I can't afford that much. 

I have eight hamsters in my house and my mummy hamster just gave birth to 9 or more babies today. When we're back we found out that she ate one so we have eight new born babies right now. She seems so tired and I really hope she'll recover real soon. 

My brother raises 3 cats at shop. A mummy cat with her two two month old babies. They are adorable to me as well.

Furthermore, I used to have a rabbit for few days unfortunately it passed away. :( Sigh~

Right now, I'm thinking of adopting a dog. Crazy me huh? Having so many pets at home and I still think of having a dog. It's actually my neighbour's dog but they just let it go like a wild dog. It has been starve for few days I guess. :( Can read from my dear's blog post about it. I wish to make him mine. Only if they really treat him well, I won't try to make it mine. My dear is like Cesar Millan today. Credits to him. :D

I find many people push themselves very hard to earn more money, to gain more power or recognition. At the mean time, they neglect their health, time with family and doing things that they really like. Of course, there's no wrong of making money, gain more power and recognition but I feel when we're working for money, we have to remember that work is only necessary to keep us living so as to enjoy the beauty and pleasures of life. 

I read a post before and it said life is a balance of work and play, family and personal time. It is your decision to decide how you want to balance your Life. Take some time to define your priorities, realize what you are able to compromise but always let some of your decisions be based on your instincts. Happiness is the meaning and the purpose of Life, the whole aim of human existence. So, take it easy, do what you want to do and appreciate nature. 

As I grow, I find life is so fragile that can be ended up anytime. Deep in my heart, I know how pain it feels losing someone that we care. I seldom speak about it cause there's some personal issues that I tend to hide and try really hard to forget about it. Anyway, life goes on and we still have to stay strong and live life to the fullest. Always remember, life is short, do not take it for granted.

There's hard time in life but I'll never forget God is always there for everyone. After a storm comes a rainbow. All the best~

Met an old friend

I met an old friend through a chance encounter today, she's Jasylin. She didn't really change much though, still pretty as usual. No, I should say prettier :) Had a chit chat with her and I'm really glad that she's doing fine. It's two years back for the last time I met her. Thinking back how I first went to primary school and made friends together. We were best friends and sadly we went to different high school. Time flies huh.

She's going oversea this September for her further studies and I can't really think of when will be the next time we meet. Apparently when time fades, what we left is memories. Guess gotta' move on and wish fate brings us gather again. Maybe, with the other old good friends as well.

When we're in Primary 6 

Getting a new phone?

With all the high techs we have now, there's lot of super phones we have now in market. Friends around me start to use i phones, Android phones etc while I'm still using a big, old one.

 

It's Nokia Navigator that I'm using. Back in 2008, it's a really good and everyone knew how good it is. I was so excited when I first got it. The first Nokia phone which has GPS, with double speakers and a nice looking design (for that time). It's like a nasty old phone, that's how the others comment it for these days. D: Still remember I still blogged for it when I first got my Nokia Navigator.

People get sick so as phones I guess? Recently, my keypads aren't functioning and it really makes me sick of it. Maybe it's really a time for me to change but I'm afraid it happens at the wrong time. Sigh~ I'm not ready for a new one yet. But still, gonna' expect the unexpected. :(

There's someone I know passed away few days ago. A girl, who fought with her sickness with positive thinking all the way long. Though I'm not her friend, I can still feel how strong she is.

It's really a shocking news that a young girl ended up her life because of a kind of sickness. Life is really fragile. Can never know what is coming up next, life can just end up the next second. Who knows? I have a deep self-examination when I know about this news.

Am not alone living in this world, there's people around us, parents, siblings, friends and maybe strangers, they're a part of us that we live with. I always tell myself, cherish everyone that I have now but sometime it really doesn't work. How do I forgive someone when he/she yell at me? How do I forget when people betrayed me? How do I can't remember, the way somebody lied to me? There's so many reasons in life that I find I can hardly forgive and forget. Speaking that I have to appreciate but how much does it work out?

Do remember, once something bad happened, it may leave scars behind. So, always be careful with what you say and what you do. Words can either heal or hurt, same goes with action. Forgive and forget, it's a simple phrase with a deep meaning inside. No doubt, I'm learning it. To everyone who reads my blog, I guess this is a lesson for everyone to learn too? Cause those who love you and the ones that you care, can't always be by your side. Forgive them and cherish them always.

Loves,
Lilian

Trust

Guess there's no one in Earth that we can't trust whole-heartedly. Though there's friends out there, psycologists or whoever that's willing to lend us their ears but there's no one who can really keep them as secrets. Sigh~

How observant you are? :)

I wonder how observant can a person be? It's hard to figure out for the right answer.

Anyway, I believe that no matter how observant you are, you can't read exactly what the others are thinking about. As I'm very sure that there's still lines that are bottled up inside someone's heart and you never know about it.


How ironic. It's three something and I'm still awake? Gosh ~ Urghh. I'll try to get to bed now again.

Tata  ♥

  What I can do is tend to be more brave and try my best for everything. I don't want to regret for things that I never try. Forget about the risk and take the fall. If it's what you want, then it worth it's all.

Every step that I take, I don't know where will it lead to. But I know each step that I take, it proves that I did not give up !

I know how bad I want things to last forever but for the meanwhile, I still have to clear my mind to take it easy. I like to have my future mapped out, now maybe I need to learn to go with the flow. Like what someone told me, don't expect everything is the best, do remember to expect the unexpected.

I'm glad that he tend to be so honest to me cause if he promise something, it may become a broken vow. Needa' to admit that fact is always very cruel. Even when Cinderella appears in this real world, I bet she also won't find her prince like how the fairy tales used to be.

I know it's a fact yet it still affects my mood a lot. :(

I'm just trying to help somehow.
I know that I can be a listener but I can't be a good adviser.
I've tried so hard to get things better but now it seems that I still fail to do so.
What if I could wish upon a time?
Can I ever make things right?
I think I'll still fail to do so.
One word to describe :
I'm a failure.

I can't stop myself for feeling so depress.
:(

Delete key

As if our brain work like how computer function, I think it will be great...
I can click on the "delete key" to delete all the memories that she gave you...

Thanks all.. ♥

Dearly Christina ♥,

I know that you still can't get over it but you gave me encourage to go through it. I'm feeling better for now. I wish you the best, what you need is time. K? Together we put in effort to be the best. Jiayou^^

Dearly Lon and Jiaying ♥,

Thank you for supporting me so far. Thanks for the understanding and being there for me when I need help. Though we didn't hang out always for now, you two are still my besties. You two as a couple must work out together k?

Dearly Natasha ♥,

You're like a sister for me. Thanks for your huggie when I cry, it meant so much for me. Really need to admit that actions speak louder than words. Your love and caring are always there for me. Thank you very very much !

Dearly Bii ♥,

I read your blog already. Thanks for your comfort k? We never meet before but from blogging, it's really nice to know a friend like you.

Dearly Mikhael ♥,

I have to admit that you're the best of all. It's really hard to believe that you're always there for me. Though it's really hard for me to get over it, you still be there for me always. You must be proud of me k? Cause you're the only one guy who ever see me cry like hell. Furthermore, I still cried so many times in front of you. It's embarrassing but you're the one that I trust the most. Thank you !

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I really cherish all of you and *friends that I didn't mention your names too*. I'm really glad to have everyone of you. Maybe I'm still the one who lack of confident, timid, blur, naive and more but I do know how to appreciate what I have. Thanks for being there for me always. I'm fine and I'm happy with my life for now. I'm not good in telling people how much they meant to me but in my heart, all of you always will be remembered. ♥

Awww my back -.-

Argghhh.. Maybe I needa admit that sometimes I'm really stupid. -.- While we're doing our assignment, Desmond showed us a video. Then guess what? It's a frightening video and I sprained my back cause of it. Kinda speechless actually. I'm so dumb. Uhh... Pain Pain ~ SOBS ='[

These few days..

Kinda busy and I have nothing to blog about. Recently, many things happened and I've learned lessons through these matters. I just figured out how naive I used to be. :( I trusted someone whole-heartedly but I never managed to gain back what I've dedicated. Regret about it but what to do? Hmmm.. I can only forget about it. So, do remember that the best person to count on is always you yourself !

For all my friends, please remember to seek for someone who really knows how to appreciate you. Now then I just realize how important it is. When someone really understands you, he'll know all your needs and he'll be there for you always. Err.. Example : If someone don't know much about DSLR, then why should that person own a DSLR?? Unless that person really mean it and really wanna learn about it. As if he just use the DSLR like a ordinary camera, then what kind of photos can that person take? Take few mins to think about it. ^^

And ah.. Recently, I'm busy about my assignments but I really enjoy myself with my gang. Love you all. <3 Hehe. Thanks for all the supports and advices. xD When our semester ends, I'll miss you all much muchie, I'm sure. =[ SOBS

One more thing !! I'm still the girl that's angelic k? Maybe I'm not so cheerful anymore but I still believe that I'm still who I am. Honestly, I'm down when I know all of you said that I've changed alot. ='( Maybe I'm cruel to him but it's for his own good naaa.

I'm not very pro in english so if you don't get what my post mean, you may leave a comment. Hiak hiak ~ xD It's late. Needa sleep now. Hearts ~ ^^

Please.. Let me go..

If you love a person but he/she doesn't love you, try to let go. Maybe you'll feel that it's so impossible to do so. Oh well, is that true? Try to step back and take a wider look of this world. It's not as worse as you think about.

What do you expect? When someone needs you but you're not there for her. How do you feel? All the way, she's the one who devotes her love and patience to you. Somehow you never realize about it.

Can you please let go? She don't want any apology from you, what she needs is freedom. What she wants to do is to find someone who really knows how to appreciate her. You're not the one so please, let go. Let her get the chance to seek for her happiness. You can only give her sadness, sorrow and pressure.

She has wings and she wants to fly. She wants to spread her wings and learn how to fly. It's all over and the feeling fades away since you're no more there for her.

trust?

A friend of mine asked me, do I really speak out my mind to anyone or not. Flash back and think carefully, it seems like I really don't have a friend that I trust the most. I'm a good listener but I find that it's really hard for me to speak out all my thoughts.

Is it because of I'm hurt before or I still don't get use to it? Well, I have no idea though. :( Maybe I really need to figure out. I know there are friends for me but I'm sorry that I really don't have faith for it. Am I an autistic person? Errr.. I don't think so?

I ever trust my friend whole-heartedly before but mostly I've been betrayed. However, I still want to thank for the betrayers. Because of you, I know that how evil this world is and you let me know that I have to stay strong always.

Slowly, I'll bring back all my faith to find someone I can trust again. :)

REALIZE

It has been months that I didn't write about my daily activities. Haha ! Every Thursday I'll be having my life drawing class. For our topic today, we were using canson paper and coloured it up with soft pastel colours. Well, it's really a new thing for us but from today's lesson, I really learnt a lot. :)

We started to draw since morning, some of them still manage to finish it and start to colour. Cool~ Err.. I didn't manage to finish drawing it by morning. =.="

Feeling so stress after I was back from lunch. Everyone started to colour while I was still drawing. >.< I was so nervous and stressed ! Can I put the blame on the traffic jam? :X Hiak hiak~ However, thanks lord I managed to finish it and started to colour.

When I started to colour, I feel wanna scrible the whole thing as I don't think I have enough time to finish it. Anyway, I didn't do so cause I found out actually it's very enjoy to colour. Oh ya, needa thanks Natasha for keep cheering me up, I really love you. <33

I realize that we really needa enjoy what we choose to do. Though I'm still not so good in drawing, I'll put my effort in to make it better. As, I really enjoy drawing. REMEMBER: Choose what you love, love what you choose. :D You'll always be special when you believe that you're special. ^^ Cheers, all my friends. Put effort in whatever you like.

I weep like a baby

I tried so hard not to break down and cry.
Somehow I still fail to do so.
How can it be in that way?
Feel so hard to take my first step to walk over it.
What can I do?
Weeping like a baby makes me feel better.

Loner : SPEAK OUT !!

Since I'm young, I don't like to be alone. Whenever I'm alone, I'll start to think about many things. It affects my mood a lot. I don't like to be emo but I can't get rid of it. Someone please tell me how! ='(

Though I always try to be perfect, I ain't a pefectionist. "Well, take it easy!" Maybe you'll cheer me up by telling me that but honestly I really can't.

Someone told me that : "When one door close, another open." Yes, this is true. But, I can't find my entrance. I've been seeking for it for so long and all the way, I'm still a loner.

Kinda sad but I have to admit that it's a fact that I can't deceive myself anymore. Wake up, there's no fairy tales in real life.

Explain....

Someone ask me about de notes in my facebook.
Why all of them are the same as in my blog?
Lian Lian use link to link all of it.
So it appears on both website at the same time.
Not that I'm too free and type it twice. =="

What a cute thinking. xD