Nightmare

I had a nightmare yesterday. :( I wish it can be about I was chasing by a ghost, bitten up by someone etc. I can't believe it's a dream that makes me cry. When I woke up, I can still sense the tears on my face. It really breaks my heart.

My friend, Derrick is going through a tough time, being dumped by his love one. In my dream, my situation is WORSE than his. I feel so awful. Is it because I heard too many stories about this kind of thingy, being neglected for too long or watching too much dramas? Whatever it is, I feel really sad and the nightmare certainly makes my mood down. Sigh~ What to do? Hope it's only just a dream so I won't turn out to be a fellow like this.

Forever Alone :(

My Life

Had a great chat with my old friend last night. She told me that I'm having a colourful life. I wonder how people really define it?

Actually I'm having a pack lifestyle now.

School
Everyone knows that I'm still a student. So, for the time being, I'm always busy with my assignments. I'm in final year now, there's no way I can slack or not doing my best. I'm trying to improve as from the least, I can be better in all the skills that we've learned.

SSPCA
Just adopted a puppy from them on the 17th of July. My puppy was not really healthy when I first get her. Luckily she recovered and now she's a naughty little one. I'm really glad to have her. Sometime I feel depress yet she's the one who can make me forget about it. Everyone in my family loves her. :) After adopting her, I started to help SSPCA whenever I can because there's lot of animals there need homes! Tell me if you're willing to help, I'll let you know how.

Tutor
I'm officially a tutor already. I was actually there to replace my friend as she's going back to Brunei for three weeks. Who knows I get a chance to work there as well. Needa' work for once every week so I hope it won't be a burden for me. I enjoy being one but I don't choose it as my real job though. I don't like teaching in school because there's too many students to care of. Teaching is a tiring job. =/ Respect your teachers always!


Family
I have to help my brother to close shop almost everyday. To be honest, I don't really like to help because I have my assignments to do. I can't concentrate if I do it at shop but I have no choice. :( When I reach home, it's 8 something already. So I can only start my assignment around 10 something (Have to eat dinner and feed Cookie). If go out eat, I can only do it at 11 something. Urghhh~ Sad case.



Tell me, this is a colourful life or it's a packed life? To me, it's a packed life. Hopefully I'm wise enough to plan my time. Wish me luck ya! :)

RIP, my lil rabbit

Brother called me and told me my lil rabbit passed away. :( Sigh~ Can't believe his life ended up so fast.

I came back and checked, he was cold and not moving anymore. It's really sad when I saw it. I wonder what really happened? I should have come back to check him out whenever I'm free. I SHOULD!

I think he's too young to be away from his mum and being stressed in new place? Hmmm.. Just a wild guess, no proves though. It feels so different without him. Even he's just for few days time, my family loves him very much. Dad still bought a lot of carrots for him and everyone doesn't gather together just to see him anymore.

It's the first night after I lost him and I don't get used to it. I really miss the time he came to me when I was doing my assignments late at night and stayed between my feet to accompany me and waiting me sayang. I would always pick him up and put him on my leg to sayang. I still bought his favourite carrots and tomatoes for him as well but too bad that he's not here anymore.

RIP

I miss you, B'bit.

A promise

Don't give up easily even when there are difficulties at times. :)

Tit tit is pregnant?

I wonder is my girl hamster pregnant. Her tummy grows bigger but I can't find any other symptoms that prove she's really pregnant. Hmmm.. Everything is still the same, she runs, she sleeps, she eats a lot as usual.

My dad ever had white mouse as pet when he's young so I asked him about it and he said she's pregnant. Actually I didn't know he had a pet mouse before till he told me just now. I just know he likes animal very much and can be friendly with them. You'll never imagine how cool he is! He can even play with his pet fish. 

Btw, I'm really happy if Tit tit's pregnant as I really wish to have a chance to see how animal raises their youngs. I'm soooooooo excited. Hopefully she's really pregnant if not I think I'll feel disappointed! ><

Recently..

Am busy with my assignments recently. Trying really hard for them and it really makes me stress out sometimes. :( Sigh! Still, I know I'm not alone, friends around me are the same as well.

To all who are doing real hard for their works, jiayou! Don't give up yet. All the best k?

Gonna' get my ass back to my work. Take care all.

Cheers,
Lilian.

I wonder is it alright for me to say all the stuffs out? I can't take it anymore. :( Seriously, I don't know how to settle things right. Have no idea what should I do to calm myself at all. I need HELP!

New record? About one month didn't blog. Well, finally it's over, finish a sem and having a month time for me to stay at home being a pig.

Unfortunately, it's not over yet. I decided to change to Foundation before but LimKokWing doesn't allow for some reasons. So, as a result, I'm going to continue my Diploma course. Actually it's not something bad but I have to face things like separation with some of my friends? By then, when I was ready for foundation, it turns me down when they said that I can't change. What to do? Sigh~


Am trying to take things really easy but it's really hard to do so. Recently, facing mentally problems. It's really hard to find someone to talk to. I have problem in telling things. :'( Hard to express and always in a dilemma wondering should I say out.

I know, shouldn't force myself or being over demanding. I'm not supergirl.

Ouch~

Wanna' remember today cause it's the first time I know how stomach cramp feels like. :( It's very painful. Sigh~

Luckily my dear was there for me though he doesn't really know what to do by that time I guess? Till his mum came back, she told him that maybe it's because of my stomach cramped. She gave a leaf for me and put it on my stomach. @@" Weird~ But a new experience. xD By then, his brother gave me medicine to eat and I feel better after that.

I would like cry like him if I can. D:

Luckily, I feel better now. Thanks to dear and all his family ♥

After being torture for months, finally I manage  to get a rest for one week. I never know assignments can kill people in this way, it's something like you needa' "date" with the assignments everyday. I bring my assignments no matter where I go, even when I'm having my dinner in a restaurant or while waiting for the traffics when I'm driving.=x I'm not as strong as the others, my friends they can don't sleep just to finish their work but I have to and I need it seriously. D: Feel so impress for my friends who don't have to sleep~

Sleeping beauty used to sleep at 10 every night but since the evil assignment monsters find her almost everyday, she starts to sleep late. :( From 10, she sleeps at 12 and sometime 1 or 2. If not, she'll be in bed at 1 and wake up at 4 to continue her work. Sigh ~

I know it's not the end. There's still tons of assignments waiting for me and I still feel like slacking as it's holiday. Other than that, I'm trying to get enough sleep. Can I be a pig for a week? Please~~ :(

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Pig pig Lilian ♥

Friends forever

After staying in a dilemma for some time, I've made my decision which is changing my course (Diploma) to Foundation in Graphic Design. Well, it's something good as I'm ahead of other people in terms of time.

Anyway, it tears me up whenever I think about my friends and I gonna' separate for classes. I feel awful whenever I think about it. Maybe two is better than one? But I still prefer one for this. Can we stay in a same gang till we graduate? Though it's a naive thinking of mine, yet I really wish upon a star that it may happen someday.

For when two beings who are not friends are near each other there is no meeting, and when friends are far apart there is no separation :')

Friends forever, my dearly friends. ♥

Lately

I find that I didn't update my blog for quite a some time. .___. To all my stalkers, sorry k? :P Recently, I'm kinda busy with my assignments. Having class from morning to evening everyday. Quite tough actually when time suddenly become so pack. It's very different from Sem1. In Sem1, we usually go to class for some briefing then we can go home directly. Now, we have to stay in class and do our work whereas lecturers will check about our progress.

Well, I guess it's something good as I learn to organize my time and I feel that I'm more discipline than before. So far, no more last minute work and I must make sure this habit won't stop. On the other hand, it certainly means that I'm getting not enough sleep. Sleep at 12 or 1 has become a routine for me which is something bad I think? Sigh. I wish I can be Sleeping Beauty again. ):

Anyway, I'm glad that things are getting quite smoothly for now and maybe I can receive my babe for this coming week. Crave for it badly. :S That's all for now, needa' work on my assignments again.

Tata ♥

FML ==

Alright, remember about my last post about DSLR? I think it's one of the best moment that I wanna' remember it.

 

I was overjoyed about it and it really brighten my day.I think I almost tell everyone around me that I gonna' own Canon 550D.

By then, I guess I ate something wrong and it makes me feel so sick. I was so weak and I still headed to school. Don't wanna' miss my classes? LOL Anyway, it's useless at all. In class, I don't have the mood to do my assignments. Feel so distracted as it pains so much and Derrick was there who always make me laugh. At last, my dear and I went home cause our situation were getting worse. ):

Is it because I ate too much (tam jiak)? o.o? Erk ~ =x

At the same time, I needa' catch up my friends as I have four pieces of drawing waiting for me to do. :( That's the assignment for Life Drawing that I have on the day that I was very ill. =.= Feel like doing it just now but suddenly I feel so ill again, so I just sleep for few hours. Guess what, I have a nightmare and it put me so down, can't even calm myself down. :(

I thought everything was over till someone came and told me that his girl was disappointed about the present. I don't feel like clarifying anymore, just put the blame on me k? I was just trying to apologize at the first place but who knew that the owner didn't even know what's the present was. What if I told you, I was innocent? Urghh, don't wanna' think about it anymore. Just put the blame on me, I'll accept it.

Alright, there's one word to describe me for now.

FML ~

Don't frown as if bad things happen :)

 My dad agreed to buy me a DSLR a couple weeks before and he signed a cheque for me yesterday. He asked me to buy when I decided to get one. I was so excited and I met with my dear and his brother this morning as I would like to buy it. Everything went so smoothly, we went bank in the cheque and we headed to school.

By then, I received several calls from my dad, questioning me about the cheque. At last, he stopped the cheque and it certainly broke my heart cause I broke my promise with Jing Tuang kor kor's friend and I don't get the DSLR anyhow. I felt so down by then. Thanks Natasha for cheering me up and espcially my dear, he kept on comforting me all the way long. Thank you  ♥

Till night, my brother tried to ask for the prices then suddenly he asked me go for Canon 550D. I was so shock! He told my dad about it and now, I'm going to wait till it release. :)

  Canon 550D♥

Seems like things ain't that bad as I thought. A door closed, another open. Hahas. Want to own a Canon 500D but now I have a better choice. Can't wait for it !

My birthday

26 Feb 2010 is a day that I'll remember forever in my life.

Actually, I don't crave for any celebrations this year but I still have great one this year. Thanks to everyone.

Deep in my heart, I know how bad birthday used to mean to me. As before, all the disappointments fall on my birthday and it never changed. I'm glad that this year I have a memorable one. No need big parties, no need big cake, it's simple yet very warm.

I realized there's another thing you have to think about for birthday. You shouldn't be the big star just because it's your birthday, what you have to think about is your beloved parents. 19 years ago, my mother gave birth to me and this should be something that needa' celebrate. If not because of my parents, I won't get a chance to come to this world and know how wonderful this world is. (: Thank you, my dearly parents. ♥

Daddie Mummie

Turning 19

Left about 6 more hours more then it will be my birthday. :)

 

 

Update 3 : Face ( Skin care )

I post up about how my skin is in facebook and Rachel asked me not to sleep in an aircond room. Actually, I don't really get used to it cause the weather is hot. =.="And I feel like ignoring the advice that she gave cause I really can't accept it.

But, thanks to my beloved one, he motivates me not to sleep in an aircond room. ♥ The power of love is kinda strong. x.x I know when he read this, he gonna say : " Siao ! " or " You need a slap ? " Haha ! But who cares. :P Just hope I'll make it as a routine. Wish me the best ! :)

Update 2 : Face

I'm back from my facial treatment. It pains so much !! But no pain no gain. ):

Now I'm waiting it to be recover. The beautician told me that my skin is very dry so I have to get a new lotion for my skin I guess. Sobs. Needa drink more water and eat more fruits. Can't be lazy anymore.

Go go Lilian ~~~

I screwed up something again

Sometime I really don't get it why I could be so careless. A friend told me about something that I care a lot but I answered her back in a bad way. Actually I didn't mean it at all, what I wanna' do is express out how I feel. I think she got me wrong. ):

To be frank, I'm kinda' stress when people gonna think that I'm weird cause I have something different than the others and I wonder how many people could stand it when they are in my situation. Maybe it's not like what it should be but I can't change it.

I would like to apologize to her..

To my dear friend - CK,
 am sorry about what I said today. I didn't blame you and I really do appreciate your care to me and my family. Actually I would like to explain but I didn't know how to. As for all this whiles, I found that she's feeling bad whenever the others judge that she's odd. I'm sure you know who am I talking about. I'm trying to protect her cause I don't hope to see her like that. I'm very sorry as if I hurt you in words. No matter how, you're still one of my best friend. Hope you could understand my situation.

Chinese New Year

New year is just around the corner and I think most of the Chinese are busy cleaning up their houses. Well, I'm quite used to it as I'm the one who clean the house often since I graduated from high school. Something I hate about doing it is whenever I finish tidy up the whole thing, my dearly family gonna' mess up everything again. It's useless about complaining and I stop to complain cause it doesn't work at all. =.=" Anyway, we clean the whole house together this time. I'm so glad about it and it's fun while we're working together. It saves lot of time still. (:

..:::Tada:::..

Alright, I'm not action action wanna show how hardworking I am. But, why can't I be a bit taller? I need a bit taller, a bit more will do. Cause like what you can see, I can't reach to the top to make sure it's clean enough. :'( Pity pity. Sobs*


Enjoy your time with your family when you all clean your house together k? Teehee.

Good luck to all.

Tata ♥